Project 31 Day 17: Happiness

Day 17.  Write about 3 things that make you happy.

1. The people in my life--the hubs, the fam, the pals. The lot of 'em. They bring me such incredible joy, challenges, love, and encouragement. I just can't imagine life without them.  I guess you guys are stuck with me.
2. A good book. No really, you don't understand. A brilliant piece of written word can make my day . . . nay, my week . . . or dare, I say it? My month? Some of them just stick with you for years. I can't pick up Til We Have Faces and not fall in love with it all over again, uncovering another little nugget of wisdom. Or The Hobbit . . . or . . . well, there are lots of books that stick with me.  
3.  Outdoor beauty. There is nothing like the perfect beach day to restore and inspire joy. Stunning forests put me in that peaceful awe that only beauty can. Then, of course, there are those fantastic creatures milling about that inspire my curiosity and spunk. I love it all. Until you step in something unpleasant. That's just not cool. 

I'm going to take this a step further and talk about three things that will just kinda ruin my day. Too much info? 

1. People.  Especially the super popular, put-together, successful people. I have never, ever, EVER been that person.  I've had my little successes and lovely outfits here and there, but I totally clam up and break into a sweat when I encounter perfect people, especially people I knew when I was younger and happen to run into now and again. I dread seeing people from my high school years. Why? They were in, I was out, and not much has changed, except for my weight. It's ridiculous, I know. No, trust me, I know, but it's a struggle I've had from first grade on. It's a hard leech to peel off. Are we working on it? Sure. It's just a LOT of work to get rid of a boogie man who's followed you forever. What do you do without him?
2. Failure--more really the failure to be "enough." To not make enough money, to not write enough, not cook well enough, not clean well enough, not work hard enough, not email enough, not correct papers enough, not outgoing enough, not healthy enough, not strong enough, not enough not enough not enough. Has anyone told me I failed? Nope. Do those voices whisper so a little mistake suddenly grows to a catastrophe? Oh my lanta, yes it does. 
3.  Money. I guess this goes under the "not enough" thing. Money's been a little fly in my ear since I was old enough to recognize what it was. I shouldn't have any worries, but they are there, mostly about the future. I think my mind just gets bored if I'm not worrying. 

BUT!!! Fears and joys all together, they are part of what makes me me. Are fears things to work on? Oh golly, yes. But that just makes the journey all the more interesting, right? ;]

I like interesting.  

Honeymooning! October 2009